MY TRUTH

Deepassionate1 Speaks

My Truth…
There are days when I wish I can have the passion without the pain
Days when I get up and I want to go back to sleep again
For my demons don’t taunt me when I’m greeted by the light
I don’t wear too much makeup, just a touch of eyeshadow to keep my eyelids bright
Especially when the thunderstorms come pouring down at night
Pick up that pen and write
Why waste my energy and time to fight
So tired, but I’m still searching for his insight

My Truth…
I realized that the stage is a sacred space
Built for the children of God to receive and share His grace
It’s not just a place to pick up the mic
Spit some fire, but leave no insight
Memorize a poem
Pull up and recite
Talk about changing the world, but still not living right

My Truth...
Sometimes I want to grab my pen and plunge in deep
Set my words on fire and listen to my heart speak
About the things that make Deepassionate1 weak
Like how I struggle with depression and learning how to let go
Of the things and the people that take my high and bring me low
About how I worry about the future and get stuck in my past
Talk about how many times I cry myself to sleep, while praying that the pain won’t last

My Truth…
I am still searching for the missing parts of me
And when I recover all parts of myself I will be totally free
Free from the pain, free from my past
Free to be me, yes free, “free at last”




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Last week I received the proof for my latest book Better Over Bitter and I knew deep down in my heart it was time to get ready for my launch. I immediately went into panic mode because I knew how expensive finding a venue is sometimes. I started my research and I knew that I was going to need some financial assistance if this launch was going to go as I envisioned it. I prayed about it and I decided to create a GoFund Me campaign. I was hoping that my friends and family members would be able to support me during this next phase of my journey. I would be lying if I said that I wasn't a little disappointed when I saw the number of times the campaign was viewed and the number of times it was shared. I was disappointed and I told God all about it. He told me not to worry, in fact, he said that it is not the quantity, but the quality of life that matters. He told me that we get caught up in who is supporting us instead of focusing on who is the source of our lives. I reflected on that truth and then he gave me more food for thought. He said that we are assigned angels for each phase of our lives and when those assignments are over, we have to be willing to let go of our current angels to make room for our next one. And with that, the first donation came in and then the next and on the 5th day with the glory flowing from heaven, I met the goal for my campaign. $1000. My angels showed up and their blessing they did not hide. So thankful for my Lord and Savior, who each day is my guide. I am so thankful for all that was given to me, the Better over Bitter Launch will take place on September 15 as we begin the work that will encourage liberty of the mind, body, and spirit of the people in our communities.