I've been grappling with this question ever since my event took place on June 25, 2022.
The Evolution Behind The Mask was more than I imagined. The people, the art, the film, the performances, the food and the vibe was curated by heavenly hands and it was truly embraced that night! The Evolution is over now and I'm still here with this nagging question What happens after The Evolution Behind The Mask?
THE NEED FOR HEALING
Throughout the curation of The Evolution Behind The Mask, my sis-star friend and coach told me that this was just the beginning of the healing work that I needed to do. And she was right! Even though, the night was magical and transformative, it was also the key that unlocked some doors that I had to walk through in order to accept the healing that my soul deserves. Mind, Body & Soul Care is a form of resistance and I knew that I was being empowered by God to finally feel his Joy from within. My quest for healing continued, but I knew this work couldn't be done on my own. I began searching for a therapist again and after many months of searching, I found the woman who God assigned to me to begin the work.
Yesterday was my third session of therapy and it was a very hard session for me. My therapist led me back into my past so I could bring some closure to some of the younger versions of myself. It was a little freaky revisiting those moments that were dormant for so long, but I understood her thought process, she said "You can give to them now what they needed back then so they can have some closure and you can move on."
THE DREAM AND THE REVELATION
I am a dreamer, figuratively and literally speaking and last night's dream gave me a revelation that I was searching for for over two decades of my life. I've always felt like I was and am too emotional, always crying and having moments where I am overly stimulated by my emotions. Last night's dream took me back to one of the traumatic situations that happened to me when I was 13. I woke up crying and that was when I heard in my Spirit, "Look up the brain of a 13 year old and the effects trauma can have on it." So I did, and in a matter of moments, I gained the understanding of my being that plagued my soul for years.
At the age of 13, the rational thinking part of the brain isn't developed, in fact the Amygdala whose main job is to "regulate emotions, such as fear and aggression" is holding down the command post for the teen. "The Amygdala is also involved in tying emotional meaning to our memories, reward processing, and decision-making."
What does this have to do with my situation?
When that traumatic incident happened to me, the provision and support needed from the Prefrontal Cortex (The part of the brain that is key to reasoning, problem solving, comprehension, impulse control, creativity and perseverance) was not available, so my Amygdala took the reigns. However, from that age to now, my Amygdala never gave control back to my Prefrontal Cortex, leaving this emotionally driven woman, Deepassionate1 to figure things out.
What happens now?
Acceptance is the first thing. I accept that I didn't receive the care that I needed back then to help me deal with the trauma and because of that I am more emotional than I want to be. I am going to continue working with my therapist, implementing the coping strategies that she is empowering me with. AND I'm going to add Siberian Ginseng to my self-care regimen. It promises to help me with my anxiety, mental and physical stress.
Set on high
So full that you need a day or two for recovery after their release
Abba is it my time to move, or should I still be standing still?
Pushing you to pause and take a deep breathe into your life
Leading you to still waters, no rhythms, no rhymes
Just peace for the pieces of your mind that are scattered
Between you and your creator because you've finally acknowledged that He is the only one who can heal the hole in your soul...
God Knows Your Heart
By Susie Larson on Aug 18, 2022 04:30 am
Every soul needs healing of some kind. And every one of us has baggage that needs to go. Baggage like fear, despair, discouragement, jealousy, and insecurity. May you dare to humble yourself under God's mighty hand. Ask Him to show you your heart, the things you cannot see. Dare to surrender your plan, and trust Him with your desires and see if He doesn't meet you, minister to you, and establish you more fully in His purposes for you. God wants to revive His Church. He's purifying hearts, healing hearts, and disciplining those who need it. He misses nothing. May revival start within you as you sort through the stuff that pushes you down or holds you back. God always has more for you. Whatever promises you've memorized, know there are more of His promises to appropriate. In whatever ways you've experienced God, these are just tastes of things to come. Nothing on earth compares to knowing God in a way that changes you. The world needs your influence. And Jesus loves you more than you love yourself. Trust Him as He changes you from the inside out.
Acts 4:13 ~ The council members were astonished as they witnessed the bold courage of Peter and John, especially when they discovered that they were just ordinary men who had never had religious training. Then they began to understand the effect Jesus had on them simply by spending time with him.
Questions worth answering
1. Can you think of any childhood trauma that is affecting your adulthood?
2. What are your thoughts about therapy?
3. What are some things that you are learning to accept in your life? How does that acceptance make you feel?
REST. RESET. REJUVENATE. REVOLUTIONIZE YOUR LIFE!
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