There are days when I wish I can have the passion without the pain
Days when I get up and I want to go back to sleep again
For my demons don’t taunt me when I’m greeted by the light
I don’t wear too much makeup, just a touch of eyeshadow to keep my eyelids bright
Especially when the thunderstorms come pouring down at night
Pick up that pen and write
Why waste my energy and time to fight
So tired, but I’m still searching for his insight
I realized that the stage is a sacred space
Built for the children of God to receive and share His grace
It’s not just a place to pick up the mic
Spit some fire, but leave no insight
Memorize a poem
Pull up and recite
Talk about changing the world, but still not living right
Sometimes I want to grab my pen and plunge in deep
Set my words on fire and listen to my heart speak
About the things that make Deepassionate1 weak
Like how I struggle with depression and learning how to let go
Of the things and the people that take my high and bring me low
About how I worry about the future and get stuck in my past
Talk about how many times I cry myself to sleep, while praying that the pain won’t last
I am still searching for the missing parts of me
And when I recover all parts of myself I will be totally free
Free from the pain, free from my past
Free to be me, yes free, “free at last”
Last week I received the proof for my latest book Better Over Bitter and I knew deep down in my heart it was time to get ready for my launch. I immediately went into panic mode because I knew how expensive finding a venue is sometimes. I started my research and I knew that I was going to need some financial assistance if this launch was going to go as I envisioned it. I prayed about it and I decided to create a GoFund Me campaign. I was hoping that my friends and family members would be able to support me during this next phase of my journey. I would be lying if I said that I wasn't a little disappointed when I saw the number of times the campaign was viewed and the number of times it was shared. I was disappointed and I told God all about it. He told me not to worry, in fact, he said that it is not the quantity, but the quality of life that matters. He told me that we get caught up in who is supporting us instead of focusing on who is the source of our lives. I reflected on that truth and then he gave me more food for thought. He said that we are assigned angels for each phase of our lives and when those assignments are over, we have to be willing to let go of our current angels to make room for our next one. And with that, the first donation came in and then the next and on the 5th day with the glory flowing from heaven, I met the goal for my campaign. $1000. My angels showed up and their blessing they did not hide. So thankful for my Lord and Savior, who each day is my guide. I am so thankful for all that was given to me, the Better over Bitter Launch will take place on September 15 as we begin the work that will encourage liberty of the mind, body, and spirit of the people in our communities.
Just look deep inside and see
The woman I was created to be
I am a diamond who shines brightly with the sun
I am fearfully and wonderfully made
Sweet, strong & beautiful
Giving life to the weak
I am not easily broken
Using the power in my voice to speak
Launching new concepts each day
Re-educating your minds
No need for concern this caterpillar will be fine
Created to be a butterfly
though strange is beautiful to see
when something so fragile
grows strong and flies so easily
no longer hiding from the forces of life
Embracing the wind as I fly high and free
Now I can clearly see that I am
Yesterday I met with my former 7th & 8th-grade student Clyshay Mone'. When we saw each other at the library, we embraced in a hug that melted the time that stood between us. We sat and talked and I reconnected with Clyshay's heart; I felt her pain along with her passion for the journey that she is about to embark on. My caterpillar had transformed into a butterfly and I came back into her life to help her learn the importance of protecting her wings. This transformative process of a butterfly isn't an easy one, but it is a necessary one.
"Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it."
Clyshay Mone' Receives her Passion Filled Writers' Box
GIRLS LIKE US ARE DESTINED TO FLY FREE
Who lives inside of you
It is time to pull yourself forward and make your dream come true
It's time to get fired up and dare yourself to let go
Moving swiftly with your heavenly flow.
Question of the day
What is the difference between a day dream and a daring dream?
Dear Bridge Builder,
How awesome would it be if when we open our eyes we could clearly see?
The bridge that we must build or the vision we must mold into our legacy.
Words of empowerment, being poured out on us
Giving us the strength that is needed to let go and trust
How awesome would it be to wake up in the morning with the power to win
Feeling a deep connection flowing from within
Giving you the clarity and conviction that you need
Getting ready to build a bridge for the next generation to cross into their destiny!!!
I woke up this morning with a song in my spirit, but the words hid its face from me. I got up and grabbed my phone and muted the volume because I didn't want my mind to be swayed by my preset station on my Pandora. I clicked on my "Let Go" playlist, turned the volume up and started scrolling through the songs. Tamela Mann's voice ushered me into a place of worship and in that space I was reminded of a truth that will never change. God Provides!!!
I can't deny the change that is happening inside of me.
It's the start of a liberation movement flowing from inside of Dee
Images of people from my past flooding my present
Proclamation of a destiny that I must see
An assignment from God created just for me
Turning pain into passion & passion into purpose
That will heal the world and make us Better Over Bitter.
"No eye has seen,