When was the last time you felt like giving up?

When was the last time you felt like giving up?

I woke up with a pain in my chest this morning. I wanted to walk away from me, but I heard God saying, "Be still." I felt my emotions boiling as I sat outside my bathroom door. I wanted to cry out, "Abba, father, why have you forsaken me?" I was hurting so deep inside, and I felt like I was losing parts of myself. I don't know which way to go; I'm tired of the highs turning to lows. How am I supposed to glow when I'm struggling to grow through these pain points? I don't see any positions of possibilities with my name on them, but I am holding on. I am searching for a place where I feel like I belong—a place with a room of my own that can hold my essence and my thoughts. Abba, can my angels hold me tighter? I feel like I am about to abort my dreams and visions that are inside of me. I am willing to die to my will if it means I can live freely without the restrictions that have burdened my soul. I felt like giving up this morning, but I am holding on to God's promise that He will deliver my soul.
​-Dee

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