This is how I feel

Dear Abba, 
I don't know what I want from them anymore, but I do know what I want for myself. I want the pain to dissolve, and I really want a position of possibility to come forth. It's been too long, and I don't know how to fix what is broken or if I want to fix it at this point. 

​I think the problem begins with people constantly thinking that I got it together or will get it together no matter what.

I want to be something other than the Dee that supplies everybody's needs. I want to answer the following questions without hesitation: What do you do for fun? What makes you happy? I want to breathe without feeling like life is restricting my breath. I want to share my feelings with others even if they might get upset. I want to get excited when I think about You saying, "Not Yet!" 


I want to know what love truly is and how it truly feels. I want to run away with me and see what that weekend might reveal. I want to be honest about my dreams and my doubts and to discover who You created me to be. I want to hear You clearly for myself and embody all of the possibilities!!!

With love & respect,
Dee


Dear Dee,
  Please stay on the path and go with your gut. Your feelings are valid and you don't have to be afraid to start over again. This time you are starting from experience not scratch. Know that the best is yet to come and you are stronger than you think. Be happy and know that good things take time!

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