Not at this time!

Sunday, January 28, 2024
8:38 AM
Harlem, Bedroom 
#gracefullybroken

I wanted to walk away from it all last night and cried out to God from the depths of my soul. "Release me!" Release me from this pain that is making me feel this way. 

This pain leaves my body and manifests into curse words and indignation.
This pain releases thunderstorms from my eyes, leaving them shut in the morning. 

I am bruised by words, tainted by memories,
and taunted by my past. 

Six years, you planted, and many seeds grew,
but I planted too. 
Can we take a moment to acknowledge that? 
A moment of silence to breathe in deeply and reflect on how support showed up and how I became more than the woman I ever imagined I would be. 

There is a new mandate in my life!
Fire and overflow is my new portion!
I can't succumb to these emotions anymore.
So, I release them today like the butterflies in my stomach.
​May they find a new resting place, as I pray for you, us, and me. 

-@Jackie- Thank you for praying with me. May God restore your strength and renew your wisdom and ability to hear and release His words even when you don't understand. "Not @ this time!" #RECEIVED 

-Love,
Dee