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8/30/2024 0 Comments It's Been a Long Time Coming! It's been a long time coming
The unraveling of my soul Mind, Emotions & Will exposed Seeking refuge from the things that are unfolding before my eyes Sounding off the alarms in heaven Before releasing the storms in my sky It's been a long time And I've lost my way I know love is searching for me I feel its presence when I pray It's been a long time, and some friends have morphed into foes I see the weeds in my garden, and I want to be left alone Let me retreat inside of myself so I won't feel the yearning It's been a long time Since you cradle me in your arms It's been a long time since the fire has been burning It's been a long time, and I don't know where we can go from here It's been a long time, and I am being honest I don't know how much more I can bear!!!
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8/1/2024 0 Comments Everything is purposeful Dear Abba,
I feel like I've been swimming against the tide and don't even know how to swim. The ocean is raging inside me, seeking release through my eyes. Should I release it so I can see the rainbow in my sky? A reminder of your covenant and promise that I will live and not die. Abba, when will I feel alive? When will I be filled with your joy that gives me strength? When will I accept that it is an honor to invest in myself? I'm searching, but there are so many missing parts. Will I ever be made whole? Will you put me back together? Will you breathe your Ruach into me? Will you heal my body, heart, and soul? Teach me how to surrender and cover the places in my heart still tender to your touch. Dear Dee, Everything is purposeful! Trust in the Lord with all your heart. (Proverbs 3: 5-6) Trust him with your body, heart, soul, family, marriage, finances, job, calling, business, dreams, fears, and future. Trust him with everything. Don't depend on your understanding of this season of your life. Seek his will in all you do and He will show you the path you are supposed to take. August 2, 2024 2:51 AM Harlem, Bedroom #determined 7/24/2024 0 Comments Dear Abba, .
I've been here before; this place isn't foreign to me. It's like hitting a recurring wall year after year. The same doubts, fears, and uncertainties have arrested my soul and manifested in my body. I've listened to your pastors and prophets, and I feel like they have forgotten their beginnings. I am struggling to attend to the matters in my hands consistently, the things I know you have given me. My heartaches are real, and the storm is stronger within. Which book in the Bible should I enter to calm the seas inside of me? Which song should I sing in this familiar land? How do I build boundaries inside of this broken love that needs mending? How do I keep moving forward without offending those who must be left behind? How do I install windshield wipers in my eyes? Who can I speak to that carry the thoughts of the wise in their hearts? Where are my mentors? Where are my guides? You said nothing is missing, but I feel so empty inside. Abba, will hope come alive? Can it be resurrected in the face of my pain? I need you to show up and forgive me if I am to blame. Shine your light into my darkness and stabilize my inconsistencies. Lead me, and I will follow; teach me, and I will learn by the power of the Holy Spirit. Please release the healing, understanding, and knowledge that I yearn for!!! -Love, Dee July 25, 2024 Back in NYC 2:59 AM #reflective & hopeful 7/15/2024 0 Comments Love is...Paul said that Love is patient and that it is kind
But what happens when Love is exhausted and wants to step off the line? Finding refuge in the back of the mind, away from the Amygdala. Love enters the "Little Brain." It wants to pray, breathe, and learn to control its balance, posture, and coordination again. It doesn't want to be envious, it doesn't want to boast, but lately, Love has to be honest; it's been complaining the most. No, Love isn't proud of this fact, but Love has been under attack. Its eyes have been open, and it sees all the lack. Love wants to be our soul food, but we classify and treat it like a snack. Still, there is a deep desire for Love to find another way to honor its life while healing our hearts each day. Love has been angered but has released the records of wrong. Love wants to be our roadmap to the place where we belong. A place filled with light where evil can't dwell. A place of truth that can break the spell of the past so we can move out of our way. A place where the grace of God protects and covers us when we pray. A place where Hope is resurrected and restored to our lives. A place where Love perseveres and is victorious in the fight. Hold on to Love; it never fails to make the wrong right!!! Written 7/14/24 10:06 AM Harlem, Bedroom #Reflective 7/15/2024 0 Comments Dear Abba,Dear Abba,
How can I be still with these rolling stones in my way? Will you rescue this girl? She has lost her way. Will you cover me with your wings? Life has broken my wings, but I still want to fly. You say, "Nothing is missing!" But I feel empty inside with nothing left to give you but these tears when I cry. 7/7/24 2:04 PM Harlem, Bedroom #opentoreceive #edited 12:26 AM 7/16/24 7/15/2024 0 Comments Letting GoI'm tired of overthinking and stressing when I know that I am blessed
Protected by heavenly hands Protective custody label on my chest Inshallah, if it be His will, it will be done So why should I waste more time coming undone about this life? When will I accept the message? God's plans don't always feel right, but wrong is something that God will never be Holy Spirit, I release my fears to you Could you open my eyes and help me to see? The things in my past happened to set the present moments in place Help me to remember that I don't have to be afraid when I'm covered with God's grace My Angels are strapped, devil needing permission before he attacks And even then, there will be no lack because God's hands still cover all, and He has my back:) 6/18/24 11:06 AM Bronx Hope #uncertain edited 7/16/24 7/15/2024 0 Comments My heartBefore we were vacant
Emptied from the inside Before we entered this season Hope could be found in our eyes Before the pain, passion called our names And we shared our soul stories We watched each other grow and made love to a steady flow How could things change so quickly? The things we loved were consumed by an external flame Standing helplessly, hoping that the worst will get better again And the broken will mend And the dark will become light And the wrong will become right Maybe this breaking will help us to heal, making all loose things tight Revealing the truth about the things we don't want to deal with when we fight Broken so we can cry out to be mended by the Master's hands Broken so we can ask for forgiveness and return to his plans Broken so our weary eyes can see What God has for us is a part of our destiny!!! Written: 5/28/24 10:01 AM Bronx Hope Rm# 111B #hopeful Edited 7/16/24 12:41 AM Harlem, Bedroom #determined 7/15/2024 0 Comments My refugeMy refuge is inside of me
I go in there when I need to feel safe and protected from life's wrongs I sit patiently with my feelings Some things are easier to sit with than others I face discomfort and tension with equal attention And my unmet needs are illuminated I call each one out by name and permit myself to proclaim I'm more than my pain. I am God's child, And this is my season to free the authentic Dee Her demands for visibility are accepted There will be no reverting to a lesser form of self Neither will there be holding space for someone else while suppressing myself. |
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