I entered into 2019 believing that this year belonged to me. I felt it in my heart and I knew that my desires were finally going to be manifested. And then life hit me, it seemed like each month brought a new trial and tribulation that wanted to break me. My days were plastered with my tears, fears and prayers. I was tired and I truly wanted to give up. And then life hit even harder. It went after one of my babies and I thought I was going to lose everything that I had inside of me. I cried out to God louder than I every did before. I begged God to have mercy on us, we needed his grace, strength and love to be delivered overnight to us. I entered into a very dark space and I didn't feel like I had the strength to come back out, but God had a plan. And it was great, he sent in the big guns to make sure I came out with my mind, body and spirit intact. My family members and friends stepped up and carried me until my own strength returned to me. I have to fight each day, holding on tightly to my faith, knowing that God started from the beginning and worked His way backwards. There isn't anything that can surprise God.
So where do I go from here?
Inwards and then forward!!!
I have to return to my place of rest, where I can Release, Every Single Thing to God, knowing that when he returns it to be it will be "pressed down, shaken together, running over" back into my life. I am committed to trusting God even when life hurts and you should too.