Sacred Goodbyes & Divine Alignment: What Silence Taught Me About Myself

Sometimes, silence is the loudest confirmation.

I can’t find one word to describe the emotional tone of March. It felt like there was an earthquake in my heart that fractured my soul. And what hurt most wasn’t the shaking—it was looking around for the people I expected to help put me back together… and realizing they weren’t there.

This month has been a reckoning. A shifting. An unraveling. But also a divine awakening.

I cried hard when I was met with silence. I felt abandoned. But I also felt the Spirit pressing on my heart, “Pay attention to the pattern.” Something always seems to happen when I choose not to let the darkness consume me. When I decide to rise, realign, and remember who the heck I am—resistance shows up in the form of fractured friendships and wounded words.

But I am light.
I am chosen.
I am a vessel that God is using in the midst of my suffering to heal others.
And maybe—just maybe—this shifting had to happen.
Maybe the placeholders had to be removed so I could fully step into the position God prepared for me.
Because I can’t be available for half-present people anymore. I deserve the same quality of T.E.A. that I pour.
When the anger hit my chest, I knew something had to change.
I can’t keep letting people crack the foundation God is restoring.

The Sacredness of Goodbye

Goodbyes don’t always come crashing in like thunderstorms.
Some arrive like a soft drizzle—barely noticeable at first.
I feel the rain but it’s not heavy enough for the umbrella, so I linger.
I stay in it a little longer.
Then I realize… I’m crying.
And I’m soaking wet.
These quiet goodbyes—the ones wrapped in silence and distance—cut deep.
They don’t come with closure. They don’t come with a fight.
They just fade.
And somehow, that stings more than a blow-up ever could.
But I know now: these were God-byes.
Ordained endings.
Necessary breaks for the season I’m entering.
And even though they left me with silence, what speaks louder is the truth:
Not everyone will fight for you the way you would fight for them.
Not everyone is meant to go where God is taking you.
I’m a cry baby—I’ll admit that.
I feel deeply. I hold on long.
But I’m learning that before anyone else, I have to be my first best friend.
A sacred goodbye may make you cry,
But deep down, you knew.
You knew the end was near.
Because something in your spirit could feel that a new beginning was on the way.
God has gone before me.
He’s doing a new thing.
And even without the closure I thought I needed, I trust He’s already building something better in its place.

Divine Alignment & The Month of April

Alignment isn’t just spiritual—it’s physical too.
And right now, I feel the shift in both.
Something’s off in my body and my soul.
So I’m taking both where they need to go:
My heart and soul to God.
My body to the doctor.
Because I trust what I feel.
And I know the body holds a score, especially when we’ve been holding too much for too long.

April isn’t just a new month—it’s an exit strategy.
I’m stepping out of entanglements that damage my soul.
I’m stepping out of financial deficits and emotional slavery.
I’m stepping out of the past and every broken thing I tried to glue back together.

April, I’m showing up as my friend—someone who can be trusted with me.
And from here forward, I’m keeping my peace close and my people closer—the ones who pour back, the ones who show up, the ones who see me and stay.