Back to Creator's Setting: A Reset for My Soul

In my journey to find joy and get my S.H.I.T. together—Strength, Hope, Intentions, and Tenacity—I've realized that while I've made significant strides, a deep sadness still hovers over my soul. It's a heaviness that I can no longer ignore, and recently, a profound truth hit me: I've been carrying the weight of so many roles for so long that I've forgotten who I truly am.

I became a mom at 18, a wife at 20, and a teacher at 24. Over the last two decades, I've continued to collect roles, each adding layers to my identity. But now, at 45, my soul (mind, emotions & will) is exhausted. It's as if I've been running on autopilot, fulfilling the expectations of each role without pausing to consider the toll it's taken on my spirit.
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In the quiet moments of reflection, I decided to speak to God about it, and He revealed something profound: I need a reset. It's a reset to the 'back to creator's setting', a state of being that is in alignment with the original purpose of my creation. But what does that even mean? It means I have to go back to the beginning, before the roles, the titles, and the assignments of this world were assimilated into my D.N.A. Who was I before all of this? Who am I now, stripped of the roles I've grown accustomed to? I realized I had to pray because the truth is, I don't know anymore. My identity is intertwined with my roles, and I've lost sight of the core of who I am. So, I decided to empty the contents of my life on the altar before God, sorting through and discarding what no longer supports me.


It's time to let go of the things holding me back because the next level God has for me is higher than the one before me now, and I can't climb with the weight of the past on my back. Letting go is challenging. There are regrets about things I think I'm lacking and doubts about whether I've done enough or been enough. But I know deep down that God has my back. He's prepared a better way for me--a path lit with His light, fortified with His will, and empowered by the Holy Spirit. His unwavering support is my anchor in this journey of renewal.


My task now is to learn about myself anew. Who am I in this season? And who was I created to be? As I seek the will of the Father, I realize that I must also be confident in who I am so that I will not be intimidated by the trials and tests that life will inevitably bring. I need to ensure my S.H.I.T. is in order--Strength to carry on, Hope to keep me grounded, Intentions aligned with His purpose, and Tenacity to see it through. This journey is about rediscovery, renewal, and realignment with the purpose God has for me. It's about embracing the joy that comes not from my roles but from the identity He's given me.


I'm choosing to focus on my joy points, to release the pain points, and to live intentionally because tomorrow is not promised, and I must be purposeful about living each day to the fullest.

If you're reading this and feeling the weight of your own roles and responsibilities, I invite you to join me on this journey. It's OK to reset. It's OK to question and to seek. And it's OK to let go of what no longer serves you. Together, we can find our way back to our true selves, the ones God created us to be. Let's continue to find our joy, get our S.H.I.T. together, and walk confidently into the next season of our lives, knowing that God's got us every step of the way.

Have You Seen My Joy?
It's still here, even amid the storm, because I'm choosing to reset, realign, and live with intention. And I know that with God's help, I'll find it more fully than ever before.
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